NO LONGER I- A one-year journey to living in His strength

So perhaps you are thinking- this girl needs some lessons in grammar. I mean, who says things like "no longer I"? And what does it mean anyway? An older version of one of my favorite scriptures out of the Bible is read this way: "For I have been crucified with Christ and it is NO LONGER I that lives, but Christ who lives within me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the son of God who loves me and gave Himself for me." (Galations 2:20-21)

So why name an entire blog after that one phrase? It's my new year's resolution, my life goal, really. To live as one who has been crucified in Christ, that His power may live through me. Basically, I've tried to live on my own for thirty unsuccessful years. I keep coming back to the same place- disappointment, failure, let down after let down, and frustration. I have learned that I can live a hundred years and never fully know the joy and the peace God has laid out for my life unless I start to live a life that is fully surrendered to Him.

So what does this look like? Over the next year, we'll explore that very thing. I am going to aim to blog once a day every day for at least the next year- even if that means I only write a few words of frustration or fear or exhaustion. I am going to be fully transparent and allow you to see God transform me from a strongly independent woman walking in her own strength, to the woman He created me to be- fully free from the bondage of the side effects of living in my own strength.

Will it be easy? Not so much. I fully expect to become frustrated, emotionally and mentally drained. I expect the enemy will attack me from every angle. I expect that there will be dry periods when I do not feel like God is working in me at all, but I will press on and I will document every step. Why? I'm not sure, really, except that this has been my greatest struggle for the majority of my adult life and I feel like if God can help me overcome it, I should share it with others so that they, too might be able to walk in freedom and victory.

I think that the greatest accomplishment I will ever have, will be dying to myself. Day 1- January 1, 2010: the journey has begun.